I don’t know how was father. I have not any remembrance of my father. Because my father was died before my born. I have never seen his picture. When my father died my mother concealed everything of my father because this thing creates pain.

But, my mother use a watch, which is my mother marriage, gifted by my father. This watch is too little but very beautiful. I have very fascination about this watch. When mother return from her job, she just keep the watch on the table, I run-up & wear the watch.  I am looking this watch & feeling so strangeness. I seem that & feel that, touches of my father. I very much addicted by using that watch, Though I had done this in hide, In absence of my mother, because my mother don’t like on personal things to use of others. And she was too strict. When I wear that watch I feel so amusing feeling which I cannot explain.

I have passed my time using my mothers watch in hidey. No body doesn’t know my inner feelings.In that time every “Eid” occasion we visit my grandmother house. Our grandmother village is very nearest in the town. Every of my cousin are waiting only for the Eid occasion because we are enjoying very much in my grandmother houses. Usually once we visit my groundmather house & making so fun. Suddenly my mother lost her watch. My mother was tremendously shocked by lost her watch. We are founding this watch everywhere; every place but watch is not found. I am too much crying. Everybody’s strange to see my crying & they couldn’t find any explanation why I am crying.  But I know what do I have lost. I am not enjoying that much in that Eidday because my mind does not play with me. We completed the Eidday & come back in our house.

By this time we have passed few month & my grandfather come in my house. And he calls me, “you have a surprise. Bring your hand?” he told me. He gives me a watch. When I looking that watch, I saw that my mother’s losted watch & he (grand father) told me that, the side of the pond, under the stairs, finds it. I was so strange that many days it in the pond side, but its work properly. I was so pleased to see the watch & I don’t understand what I will do. I think my mother understand my inner feelings my mother told me that, you are too young, when you complete your s.s.c examination you can use this watch forever.

But now you can use it very often. The incident is happen when I was in class six. I told my mother that if it is not work properly? My mother told me that it comes from Belgium & it is costly too, so you need not to worry about that watch will be workless watch. I was so happy & pleased. Now I am not using this watch in absence of my mother  & hidden anybody. Out eventually my mother don’t sustain her voice. Because we have lost this watch by robber. Robbery had happen in my ground father house.

It is a little bit possible to find the losing thing but to the terrorism can consume any thing that cannot come back. That I was not crying but I feel so pain.13/14 yrs later I feel so regret in that watch. I am looking that type of watch very frequently, but when once it lost does it return?

Keya
Khulna
naz@webbangladesh.com