Dear readers it’s a story of love. Every person has different feelings about love. There is always explanation about the feelings of love. My love is always getting me mental peace, sound mental image. Some times it gets the pain.  Some times I feel disappointed for my love. My love is life. I have lots of remembrance about my love. The memory of love is very much valuable to me, because all the  feeling which is related to the love is my personal thing. I don't want to kill my love, though I have already lost it.

The voice of Rabindranath always console to me. He told in his book that “Tomai noton korea paboo bolea, harii barae barea.”(Very frequently I lost you for getting you newly)  

He comes in my life with a new dream. With the turbulence of storm, with pinching of every surroundings, with the loud voice, for sharing every thing. I wanted to spend my entire life with him. But he left me quietly for someone else. 

He left me without making any sound.  Will he ever come back to my life?  No, I don't think so.  He is not mine anymore.  I don't know who's fault it is!  I don’t want to say that it is his fault, or maybe its mine.  When he used to keep in touch with me or spent time with me, love was there. It was wonderful to be in love. Some times I wonder what have I done.  Why me?  Why did he left me?  Some other times I wondered may be I should have never fall in love. But now its too late. He is not with me anymore, so there is no love.

Should I keep in touch with him?   Should I call him or try to make contact.  Just to hear his voice.  May be we can work it out.  Is it right to keep in touch with EX.  Should I still be his friend - just friend.  How do I deal with that.  After all he was my love.  I had lots of dream surrounding him.  How can I forget those wonderful moment of my life.  My beautiful memories.

I know I don’t forget him or I don’t want to destroy my love, because I am too much honest about my love. By being consideration of every thing I want to sustain my love within myself.  I don't care at all that he don’t recognize my love anymore. However, I love him still now, I believe my love is true and someday he will come back in my life. I know that might never happen.  But what can I do.  Every moment his face is floating in my eyes. Every moment I feel him, think of him and I dream him. 

Nazma Sultana
naz@webbangladesh.com