I was
in love with this boy name Shaheen (Not real name). I
call that afternoon love. Why, because every Friday at
4.00 I saw him coming through the main gate. He was
probably 15 or 16 years old. And I was 14. I was type
of girl who is always smiling, meeting people without
hasitation. Most of the people knew me very well
around our "para". This boy, I am sure knew
me too. But never raised his eyes to look at me.
Most of the boys in my area always eger to talk to me.
But he was different. He was not really shy but some
way it seemed to me he did a good job to avoid me. In
reality that worked for him. I began to have little
crash on him. He was cute too. Well build for
his age and unlike other boys he was not flarting with every
girl.
I waited for
the Friday, when he would come. My feelings begun to push me
to go to talk to the boy. But how? As a girl talking
to a boy was not taken well in our culture. What a problem,
I was not sure what do I have to do to get noticed.
Why he does not want to look at me. He came again almost
same time and just go through the main gate and went into
the house next door. I felt so upset and angry.
What was wrong with this boy.
Finally, I
decided to go talk to him. It was almost 4.00
pm. I went to the main door and look out the gate to
the street. I could see him coming now. He was
walking toward the main gate. I had my plan
ready. Nothing wrong to ask him "how are
you" or "who are you". He opened the
main gate and steped inside and here I was waiting for him.
I said:
Shunun...(Listen)
He is still quiet, He just looked at me with unbeleive.
He just stood there.
I said: Apnar Naam Ki (What is your name)
Again he was just quiet and not saying a word.
I could not say anything anymore. I felt really
insulted and ashamed.
Next day I am
talking to a girl next door. And happened to asked
her,
- do you know a boy comes every Friday here?
She said, yeah...you talking about Shaheen Vai. He is
a nice boy but you know he can't talk.
-What.....what are you talking about, I said.
-Yes...isn't sad...what a nice boy..but...
