Yes
this may be surprising , I was only 13 years old that time.
But, don't know how or why it happened to me so early. I
fell deeply in love with a guy, who I used to think was
annoying 2 months ago.
It
was 1997, in Chittagong, Bangladesh, me and my family have
just moved to a new apartment in a new area. So, after few
weeks have passed, I started going back to school, since it
was during Ramadan we moved. Well, I made some new
friends in the neighborhood. This girl who was always
hanging out with , her name was "IVY".
One,
day when I was going to school , I bumped into IVY on the
way out of my building, and she was standing next to this
guy , he lived in the building
right beside mine. He said hi to me , and we just asked each
other "how are you and blah blah." then I
had to leave. but I noticed that guy was looking at
me. It was a different kind of look , look with love
in his eyes. Few days later, I noticed whenever
I go to school and come back from school, he is standing in
his balcony , and smiling at me. If he is not around, and
one of his friends see me, they start to yell out his name.
Oh yeah, by the way, his name was Mamun.
So,
I was very annoyed by those things. and I even told IVY to
tell Mamun to stop these foolishness. After my exams
were over, I had a break. so I used to go to the roof and
read
books to spend my time. Mamun used to come to their
roof also and both roofs where so close to each other that
you can just jump from one to another.
Once
I was reading a book, and I noticed Mamun come to their roof
and he looked at me, and smiled. OH MY GOD! I don't know
what happened to me. That sweet smile just took me
away. I smiled back at him , for the first time.
I could never forget that moment. We used to smile at each
other whenever we saw each other. but never had a chat. I
was sure that he liked me a lot,
because, anytime he would see me on the roof from his
balcony, he came up to the roof right away. I fell in love
with him very deeply. I was surprised that I
did. The feelings I had was so beautiful and made me
so happy.
Mamun did come to my roof one day to talk to me but I wanted
him to go away. I didn't want any one to see us
talking. As you know, in Bangladesh rumors go around so
fast. When we talked, I saw deep love in his eyes. I always
smiled at him, I didn't talk to him much. Still,
life was going on so wonderfully. Mamun never told me he
loved me. I thought that was because, I was 5 /6 years
younger than him.
Very
soon, I found out that me and my family are leaving
Bangladesh and coming
to Canada. I was devastated. I cried all night but there was
nothing to do. When Mamun found out, he asked me on
the roof, if it was true. When I said yes, he asked
how long will I be in Canada. The answer was maybe forever,
we were going to settled in Canada. He looked depressed, all
he said was "oh", then I told him out flight date.
The
next month, it was Ramadan again. Mamun came to say good bye
to me on
the roof, he was leaving to spend his Eid with his
family. That day, I was so sad, I felt like I lost
something very important in my life. We said goodbye
to each other, he said he thinks I am such a sweet girl, he
hopes I have great life in Canada. Oh my god, I
couldn't hold myself, I
think my eyes became watery. I didn't want him to see
that I was crying. I said "you too" and
tried to smile and left the roof right away.
That
was the last day I ever saw my first love. Now 4 years later
,here I am in CANADA. I have guy in my life now, whom I
am deeply love with after Mamun. I never lose
him.
I
am ...over Mamun now. Everytime I remember those days,
looking at each other on the roof, talking, I feel really
down. I wonder where he is now, if we will even meet
again. ..... I can never forget my first love.
Zinat
Canada
